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I feel....
I know most of you dont care for what I feel and dont give if I'm around or not ..... I think this could be it for me and everyone....latley I've felt a new type of emotion I never had before ..... I just dont understand what the **** is going on in the world today....I'm scared....I took a walk at school today and watched people drive on the busy streets that I walked .....they honked and gave offencive jesters to each other...what is going on ???? I feel every bad too ..... I cant believe what I wrote to you guys last week..... 
Last week look what it came down to ..... that is not me .... it was a voilent attack with words , just as harmful as bombs going off and planes crashing into bluidings......I also feel anger that wants me too destory anything that getts in my way....but that is the kind of thing that I shouldnt think....anger = hate , and hate made all those people die last week........I want everyone to get along ... but its not possible cause everyone is different and most people dont like different , like races, religons , or where your from , or even what kind of car you drive or what kind of music you like ....... I dont UNDERSTAND ! All I know is that I can only sit in the corner of my room while voilence takes over the world...... I wish I could resolve all of this .... and make very thing perfect..... How much abuse can the world take????? How much hate can happen before something boils over.....my brother got attacked by some Chinesse kids for just being good at soccer..... I just feel so hopeless , fustrated and angered by things I cant change ..... especailly things that effect me everyday..... I would give up so much for peace between all......I feel like giving up I can't take the ups and downs of life anymore ...... I'm sorry for all the **** that I ever did to anyone , and all the things that I should have done , and not for loving the world , I just cant though. I wish life was as simple as 2 + 2 = 4 How can I ignore the fact the world could be in nuclear war???? This makes me think why goto school and try make a good life and family when the future only has voilence clouded around it 
I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!
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Last week look what it came down to ..... that is not me .... it was a voilent attack with words , just as harmful as bombs going off and planes crashing into bluidings......I also feel anger that wants me too destory anything that getts in my way....but that is the kind of thing that I shouldnt think....anger = hate , and hate made all those people die last week........I want everyone to get along ... but its not possible cause everyone is different and most people dont like different , like races, religons , or where your from , or even what kind of car you drive or what kind of music you like ....... I dont UNDERSTAND ! All I know is that I can only sit in the corner of my room while voilence takes over the world...... I wish I could resolve all of this .... and make very thing perfect..... How much abuse can the world take????? How much hate can happen before something boils over.....my brother got attacked by some Chinesse kids for just being good at soccer..... I just feel so hopeless , fustrated and angered by things I cant change ..... especailly things that effect me everyday..... I would give up so much for peace between all......I feel like giving up I can't take the ups and downs of life anymore ...... I'm sorry for all the **** that I ever did to anyone , and all the things that I should have done , and not for loving the world , I just cant though. I wish life was as simple as 2 + 2 = 4 How can I ignore the fact the world could be in nuclear war???? This makes me think why goto school and try make a good life and family when the future only has voilence clouded around it I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!! [This message has been edited by DeathZ (edited September 20, 2001).]
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Every Day
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Mixture of wires,
Piles of garbage,
Boxes of assortments,
Oil in water,
Houses after earthquakes,
Cars in wreaks,
Ground of roiting people,
Buning forest fires,
Smashed jack O'lanterns,
Traffic jams,
A letter lost in the mail,
Dirty dishes,
A mindless baby,
Boiling water,
Diease infected blood,
A burnt out light bulb,
A never ending arguement,
Painful death,
This is my every day feeling,
I'll never be healed ,
Cause I feel this everyday.
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by Andrew Dawson Sept/20/20001
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Mixture of wires,
Piles of garbage,
Boxes of assortments,
Oil in water,
Houses after earthquakes,
Cars in wreaks,
Ground of roiting people,
Buning forest fires,
Smashed jack O'lanterns,
Traffic jams,
A letter lost in the mail,
Dirty dishes,
A mindless baby,
Boiling water,
Diease infected blood,
A burnt out light bulb,
A never ending arguement,
Painful death,
This is my every day feeling,
I'll never be healed ,
Cause I feel this everyday.
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by Andrew Dawson Sept/20/20001
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Don't worry, you're not alone. I feel that way a lot.
I couldn't even celebrate my birthday because I felt too much grief, anger, despair, and sorrow in my heart.
I see you do have a good heart, and it's very easy in this day in age for one's heart to be corrupted by the terrible things that happen in this world every day, and lose hope and faith in the world.
If you want to cry, cry. It releases all the emotion that keeps you from being what you truly are.
Don't worry about it not being non-manly. We are all human, and, regardless of origin, gender, social status, or any other background that sets us apart, we are all the same. We all experience the same emotions: joy, anger, sorrow, happiness.
Open your heart: Hope exists, it's whether or not you want it to. Nothing is impossible; just look at what my sig says below the car...Don't say anything's impossible, because if you think that way, then it will become that way.
Open your mind: Don't think about revenge against those that anger you; nothing good will ever come of it, despite what B-rated direct-to-video movies say. AmorgetRS is a fine example of someone like that. Prove to others that you can stand tall in times of crisis and trouble; show them what a real man is made of.
Even if you're not religious, a good talk with a person of the clergy would do you a large amount of good; even if you're not of the same religion, perhaps you don't practice a religion at all, you'd be surprised how much they care for all people in the community.
(Plus, you don't have to worry about them talking behind your back about your problems that you discuss.
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Hell, if you want to talk to me, I will most certainly do everything I can to help you.
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I couldn't even celebrate my birthday because I felt too much grief, anger, despair, and sorrow in my heart.
I see you do have a good heart, and it's very easy in this day in age for one's heart to be corrupted by the terrible things that happen in this world every day, and lose hope and faith in the world.
If you want to cry, cry. It releases all the emotion that keeps you from being what you truly are.
Don't worry about it not being non-manly. We are all human, and, regardless of origin, gender, social status, or any other background that sets us apart, we are all the same. We all experience the same emotions: joy, anger, sorrow, happiness.
Open your heart: Hope exists, it's whether or not you want it to. Nothing is impossible; just look at what my sig says below the car...Don't say anything's impossible, because if you think that way, then it will become that way.
Open your mind: Don't think about revenge against those that anger you; nothing good will ever come of it, despite what B-rated direct-to-video movies say. AmorgetRS is a fine example of someone like that. Prove to others that you can stand tall in times of crisis and trouble; show them what a real man is made of.
Even if you're not religious, a good talk with a person of the clergy would do you a large amount of good; even if you're not of the same religion, perhaps you don't practice a religion at all, you'd be surprised how much they care for all people in the community.
(Plus, you don't have to worry about them talking behind your back about your problems that you discuss.
)Hell, if you want to talk to me, I will most certainly do everything I can to help you.
ICQ: 16767120
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MSN: charlie_nash@hotmail.com
E-mail: jmondare@edcc.edu
Let me know.
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It is always darkest before dawn.
However, what is about to occur is possibly the darkest days ever facing the free world. My wife asked "what do these people (Arab Fundamentalists...not regular Muslims) want"...and I said "Much like the alien in Independence Day....they want us to die".
Regrettably, many of these people are already in our countries and could start using such tactics as walking into a shopping mall and blowing themselves up, and everyone in the mall.
They are at war, and have been fighting for over 20 years. We are their enemy, and the only good American (or Canadian) is a dead one. And while the US may bomb the snot out of Afghanistan, it may very well end up like Vietnam...except this time they are also here along with being there.
This will not be like "Desert Storm" in 1991.
PS: Do you know that no world power has ever beaten Afghanistan? Britian couldn't do it in the late 1800s when they were at the height of the power. And the Soviets couldn't do it in the 1980s when they were at the height of their power.
The key is to have the backing of the "people" during a long drawn out conflict. The American public was initially behind the Vietnam conflict; and so was Canada. In fact, Canada initially sent troops to fight in Vietnam in the beginning of the conflict but pulled out later...I had a few buddies that fought in Vietnam in the 60s...and some even joined the US Army when Canada pulled out.
But as the Vietnam war dragged on, and more and more soldiers came home in body bags, the American opinion changed against the Vietnam War. Hopefully, people will always remember September 11, 2001 - not because that is when these terrorists first attacked the US (they have been doing for quite some time now), but this is the first time they brough the war to North American and are prepared to kill you ANYWHERE.
However, what is about to occur is possibly the darkest days ever facing the free world. My wife asked "what do these people (Arab Fundamentalists...not regular Muslims) want"...and I said "Much like the alien in Independence Day....they want us to die".
Regrettably, many of these people are already in our countries and could start using such tactics as walking into a shopping mall and blowing themselves up, and everyone in the mall.
They are at war, and have been fighting for over 20 years. We are their enemy, and the only good American (or Canadian) is a dead one. And while the US may bomb the snot out of Afghanistan, it may very well end up like Vietnam...except this time they are also here along with being there.
This will not be like "Desert Storm" in 1991.
PS: Do you know that no world power has ever beaten Afghanistan? Britian couldn't do it in the late 1800s when they were at the height of the power. And the Soviets couldn't do it in the 1980s when they were at the height of their power.
The key is to have the backing of the "people" during a long drawn out conflict. The American public was initially behind the Vietnam conflict; and so was Canada. In fact, Canada initially sent troops to fight in Vietnam in the beginning of the conflict but pulled out later...I had a few buddies that fought in Vietnam in the 60s...and some even joined the US Army when Canada pulled out.
But as the Vietnam war dragged on, and more and more soldiers came home in body bags, the American opinion changed against the Vietnam War. Hopefully, people will always remember September 11, 2001 - not because that is when these terrorists first attacked the US (they have been doing for quite some time now), but this is the first time they brough the war to North American and are prepared to kill you ANYWHERE.
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all i can say is **** happens it's a sad thing but if you keep on dwelling over all the **** that's wrong in the world you'll never have fun.Live life day by day and say **** you terrorists im gonna live like nothings changed."Carpe diem,Seize the day".Andy you got alot of **** to sort out,go talk to someone if you can't bare it.
My opinion NATO is gonna get it's *** kicked if it goes into afghanistan.Nothing can beat a man fighting for his homeland on his homeland.
IT only get's more complicated from here.so raise your middle finger and say **** em all.
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My opinion NATO is gonna get it's *** kicked if it goes into afghanistan.Nothing can beat a man fighting for his homeland on his homeland.
IT only get's more complicated from here.so raise your middle finger and say **** em all.
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See this ****n ***it....**** you , you low life piece of **** ....I hope you ****n die the worst death ever ****er!!!
If I were to see your face I would **** on your turbin and spit in your face....I would do the most unholly **** to your *** .....you think you can take my life and everyone elses lives just cause your jealous of what kind of good life North Americans have.....**** sucker....**** you!!!! I hope you and all your ****n idots that did this **** go straight to the deepest hole in hell , ****ER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Why did you do this ???? Do you want your family crushed by millions of tones of rubble????? WTF!!!! What kind of sick **** are you ????? I would torcher you until you almost died so you can live in pain ..... just like everyone that has to deal with your **** that you created ......*******!
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Part of the challenges of life are the ups and downs. That's why it is so important to know where you stand in your values and beleifs. In times of confusion, fear and doubt, you know where to look for guidance due to these values. Go to KaZaa (just like napster but better and not shut down) and download a song by Michael W. Smith called "Above all" and listen to the song, and go to my last post " the world is with us"...I did today..powerful combo!
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yo death chill man
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for some reason I still feel nothing about the whole thing... but I doubt that matters any ...
Stormy, don't tell anyone to chill because they're coming to grips with something, appologizing or whatever... not cool no matter what the situation.
Kinda surprised to see this, but life goes on, as does accepting and going through the emotions (doesn't happen to everyone, but it happens)
:: shrug ::
Andy, you know where to find me bro
Stormy, don't tell anyone to chill because they're coming to grips with something, appologizing or whatever... not cool no matter what the situation.
Kinda surprised to see this, but life goes on, as does accepting and going through the emotions (doesn't happen to everyone, but it happens)
:: shrug ::
Andy, you know where to find me bro
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I have tried to avoid even joining or reading these posts that have been going back and forth for the last week about this, and this is going to be my first one on the subject of the bombing of last tuesday, and the events the will occure in the next week, month, years.
first off, to andy, when i read your original post, it concered me greatly, that you seemed to not realise how intertwinded what happens in the US and Canada are. But as the week has gone on, i have seen that the anger you expressed last week probably wasn't what you really thought. AND I COMMENT YOU AND RESPECT YOU for being a man, and apalogizing for what you said.
second, these are scary times we are living in, and as a Christian, i know that it will only get worse. but that doesn't scare me, because i know how it ends, and i think everyone else does to, wether or not you are willing to admit it (no religion flames please). After last week i do not know how much more violence i can handle, but I WILL SUPPORT the United States in whatever action the government deems proper, and i would hope that everyone on this board, American or Canadian, or whatever Enthnisity, Religion, or Citizinship, would do the same. the bickering on this board sadens me greatly. this has always been a place where people have been able to speak freely, and i hope it always will, wether we agree with the person view or not, they are allowed to express it (I AM NOT CONDONING OR AGREEING WITH ANY STATEMENTS MADE THIS WEEK) and i would hope the the CC would learn and grow from the events of the world, and the events of this msg board this week.
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first off, to andy, when i read your original post, it concered me greatly, that you seemed to not realise how intertwinded what happens in the US and Canada are. But as the week has gone on, i have seen that the anger you expressed last week probably wasn't what you really thought. AND I COMMENT YOU AND RESPECT YOU for being a man, and apalogizing for what you said.
second, these are scary times we are living in, and as a Christian, i know that it will only get worse. but that doesn't scare me, because i know how it ends, and i think everyone else does to, wether or not you are willing to admit it (no religion flames please). After last week i do not know how much more violence i can handle, but I WILL SUPPORT the United States in whatever action the government deems proper, and i would hope that everyone on this board, American or Canadian, or whatever Enthnisity, Religion, or Citizinship, would do the same. the bickering on this board sadens me greatly. this has always been a place where people have been able to speak freely, and i hope it always will, wether we agree with the person view or not, they are allowed to express it (I AM NOT CONDONING OR AGREEING WITH ANY STATEMENTS MADE THIS WEEK) and i would hope the the CC would learn and grow from the events of the world, and the events of this msg board this week.
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Hey, I ain't going to chill out , I dont think you realize that we could all come to an end....Man, I want to have a family , I wanna get married.....I want to be able to drive my car , and get tickets from cops , and get drunk with my friends , have a son , screw around with my computer or goto Canucks games ....just all this ****....I wanna be able to experience very thing in life and how can I if it would come to and end in the near future...I'm only 19 man!! I'm not going to let some stupid *** mother ****er to ruin my life or anyone elses.....even the people I dont like...the only person who deserves **** like this is Bin Laden....
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I'm not going to let some stupid *** mother ****er to ruin my life or anyone elses.....even the people I dont like...the only person who deserves **** like this is Bin Laden....[This message has been edited by DeathZ (edited September 21, 2001).]
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<font face="Verdana, Arial" size="2">Originally posted by DeathZ:
I'm not going to let some stupid *** mother ****er to ruin my life or anyone elses.....even the people I dont like...the only person who deserves **** like this is Bin Laden....
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I'm not going to let some stupid *** mother ****er to ruin my life or anyone elses.....even the people I dont like...the only person who deserves **** like this is Bin Laden....
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But don't let it get you down or think about it too hard. It's like taxes or government, you really can't do much about it as it is out of your control.
Just be aware that this is "situation" is not going to be solved over night. And don't let the memory of September 11, 2001 fade away. I would hate to see the "boys" that go over their to do battle get treated like the guys who served in Vietnam. If this starts dragging into months and years, as it is most likely to, people seem to forget what actually started this once they start seeing the "cost".
It is hard sometimes not to get paranoid, but you have to also "get on with life". You can just as easily get hit by a car or contract some deadly flu; but if you go through life freaking out about it, then you might as well never leave your house.
The best way you can "get even" with Bin Laden, is to continue to enjoy life, in spite of what he did. If you get all paranoid, then you've let Bin Laden win.
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WOW 
I am so glad to see your anger directed the right way I know it is tough .I want to say to you YOU ARE A GOOD MAN FOR WHAT YOU HAVE SAID. I dont know if what I said is all in vain but ther you have it!!!!
I am so glad to see your anger directed the right way I know it is tough .I want to say to you YOU ARE A GOOD MAN FOR WHAT YOU HAVE SAID. I dont know if what I said is all in vain but ther you have it!!!! 
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Andrew,
I know we didn't get off on the right foot but this is a good place to reconcile. I appreciate your honesty in this post and I'm sorry that I insulted you earlier. This is a sincere apology and I'm not going to lay out any excuses (but this... but that...).
I'm also sorry that you are so troubled right now. It's obvious you have many issues that you are struggling with. If I can be candid for a moment I suspect it didn't start with the recent incidents in New York. I suspect that whatever you’re struggling with has been going on for a while but came to a head and is manifesting itself now. You've been able to hold it back but this is too much and it's wreaking havoc in your soul. The violence and evil in this world is real. How do we cope with it? How do we remain at peace in our hearts? How do we gather up the strength to go on day by day? How do we overcome? How do we have knowledge of what will become of us if we die? These are serious questions that deserve sound answers. I don’t know whether or not you believe there is a *** but to many people the question occurs: How can this be a *** of love? Why does He allow so many bad things to happen? If you like, I would be more then happy to share some information with you that may help you have an understanding of these things. I invite you to e-mail me at littleborgy@yahoo.com and we can talk privately. It’s worth a try… you’ve got nothing to lose… right? That offer stands for anyone else who’s interested too.
I know we didn't get off on the right foot but this is a good place to reconcile. I appreciate your honesty in this post and I'm sorry that I insulted you earlier. This is a sincere apology and I'm not going to lay out any excuses (but this... but that...).
I'm also sorry that you are so troubled right now. It's obvious you have many issues that you are struggling with. If I can be candid for a moment I suspect it didn't start with the recent incidents in New York. I suspect that whatever you’re struggling with has been going on for a while but came to a head and is manifesting itself now. You've been able to hold it back but this is too much and it's wreaking havoc in your soul. The violence and evil in this world is real. How do we cope with it? How do we remain at peace in our hearts? How do we gather up the strength to go on day by day? How do we overcome? How do we have knowledge of what will become of us if we die? These are serious questions that deserve sound answers. I don’t know whether or not you believe there is a *** but to many people the question occurs: How can this be a *** of love? Why does He allow so many bad things to happen? If you like, I would be more then happy to share some information with you that may help you have an understanding of these things. I invite you to e-mail me at littleborgy@yahoo.com and we can talk privately. It’s worth a try… you’ve got nothing to lose… right? That offer stands for anyone else who’s interested too.
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